How did I get here? more honesty (part1)

There is always a choice...
We experience trauma in different ways, this is my experience:
I found myself screeching into the present moment as if I'd fallen out of a moving vehicle.
As I tumbled to a stop to assess the damage,
the future disappeared. It ceased to exist. It couldn't exist from where I found myself, surrounded by uncertainty.
I looked over my shoulder and there was nothing.
Everything in the past was called into question because the future disappeared (or visa versa) and the energy holding everything in place stopped. One can not exist without the other.
I existed only in the present moment.
Life was distilled down to the essentials.
Those thoughts and beliefs not necessary for survival were thrown overboard. 
When I looked around me at the remnants that remained love was still with me.
In that moment I changed, everything changed.
I started living from the heart, ❤️ love took the lead. Not fish love as explained by Dr. Abraham Twerski, real love.
Living from the heart allows us to align with our truth.
When we align with our truth, energy begins to flow more freely.
I started knowing things for reasons I couldn't explain.
I started listening within myself to hear more.
I can't describe it any other way than to say I was guided, being lead by an unseen hand.
I was made aware there are lots of entities involved in the guiding from the highest power on down.
This was an awakening of both consciousness and spirituality for me.
I'm describing this so it will make sense when I continue with, Starting to Heal.