I'm grateful

I'm GRATEFUL

Each day I have a choice.
I choose to embrace the joy, even if it doesn't come with a smile. It's not always easy, but that's part of the reason I'm grateful.
I cherish life's ups and downs, each and every one. To stay in this frame of mind requires me to be present in the now.
To grow in the face of adversity,  I believe is one of life's biggest challenges. I think it requires being present. 
For almost three years, maybe more I declined physically, slowly loosing strength, and I watched my ability to walk diminish to where 3 months ago I was exhausted after a quarter mile walk and, my leg muscles would become spastic failing to expand and contract as my brain instructed. I fought fatigue daily with every ounce of energy I could muster. As I searched for a solution, I began to understand that healing comes from within. 
I gave the rabbits a run for their money, chasing down rabbit holes looking for possibilities. I went inside myself, examining everything I could find. I worked on forgiveness, acceptance, finding balance, calming my mind, I meditated, and I prayed to my higher power and to my angels.
I found the emotional component of my illness and addressed it. I practiced staying grounded, connecting to the Earth.
I suspended some beliefs so that I am open to every possibility of healing. 
How does one heal the body?
Look within, align with healing frequencies, listen and be aware. I studied Dharma.
I learned the I Am.

               I have acupuncture regularly.

I let go.

  I leaned on my wife and partner in life And we  

              laughed out loud at life's ironies.

  Always have a sense of humor close by. 

  Laughing makes everything easier. 

  I studied all sorts of energetic healing modalities.  

I studied nutrition and supplements and I've found that Vitamin D for me has been a key to healing, very high doses of it.
I am forever a student and journeyman human 🙏.
Friday I walked a mile for the first time in two years.
I'm making progress, and I am filled with gratitude.

I am a cast away cast off, cast about, coasting. I am a lone wiggler, flecking upon jams of drifting wits wanting nothing more than dreams filled with open spaces ripe with fresh words ready to harvest, so forth I fly, wings spread, pen in hand twittering a scratchy thin dark line on an otherwise blank page creating the future.